Saturday, December 13, 2008

Break my heart for what breaks yours


I said a little prayer, 'Lord break my heart for what breaks yours'

God answered,

Although that's what I prayed I think I had forgotten that I did, my heart started to break over his people, his children, his sons and daughters, oppression, poverty.
my heart was breaking for whats Breaks God's.
sometimes I think we need to be careful for what we pray for, if we pray for strength God is going to place you in a position where your going to need strength, same goes for peace, patience, love, the list goes on.
so I prayed and I expected God to answer and he did.

being here In Kilmarnock is pretty tough, mainly because I actually hate this town, (Killie readers please don't jump me) the reason I say this is because I don't really have any good memories here, this is the place i done most of my stupid stuff, my years of being a very out of control teenager.
the people here only remember me as the girl I used to be before I went to Masters commission in Canada, now this is hard.
Not a lot of people are accepting the fact that I'm not the person i used to be anymore, my Mindset when i arrived back in Kilmarnock was 'God help me, i can't be here',
I know God is going to challenge me and stretch me and even Heal me in the areas that he can't necessarily heal when I'm in Canada, i have to be here.
so i have a choice to either stay in the mindset of 'always hating kilmarnock' or understand that there ARE greater things yet to come and Greater things yet to be done in this city, and allow God to use me here.

the Holy spirit stirrs in me when i sing and proclaim these words, a fire burns and i see hope and begin to proclaim that,

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are
You're the light in this darkness
You're the hope to the hopeless
You're the peace to the restless
You are
and There is no one like our God There is no one like our God

For greater things Have yet to come And greater things Are still to be done in this city!
For greater things Have yet to come And greater things Are still to be done here

3 comments:

Annie said...

I just want you to know that I put your name on my prayer board (my fridge) when I heard that you were going back to Scottland and it is still there. I pray for you to remain focused on the only one who can bring you through these days VICTORIOUS!! WE all miss you and wait to hear great stories off God's faithfulness when you return to this family. Merry Christmas Sweetie.

Breanne Michelle said...

im now crying. aww! becka! i miss you soo stinkin much!! and you have amazing support back here who all love you and are praying for you, and God will do amazing things thru you while your there. and as for being a changed person and ppl not accepting it, i have been there, its tough, but just keep being God's Princess because that is what you are!! i love you!

Carla said...

Good for you Becka! You are much stronger than you think. God will never give you more than you can handle. But when you feel released.... let us know :) Love ya!