Saturday, January 3, 2009

Gossip

I’ve come to realize that my attitude lately, stinks.

God is breaking intimidation and offences in my life continually everyday.I cannot allow the enemy to keep pulling me down and keep targeting me with these weaknesses.

My weaknesses, I care to much about what is going on in people lives, I want to know what’s going on in peoples lives.
I keep looking for the solution when people come to me and talk.
I need to stop solving things and just listen.

Gossip is so huge, When I think of gossip I think that in a lot of conversations go on, its mostly gossip and talking about other people’s lives not very nicely.
When I was in high school and college then main high light of conversation was talking about other people, we would point out people and make fun of them by what they wear etc.
There was no life in our conversations, all we ever did was backstab and talk about other people. .....How sad

During my 3rd year at college, things got a whole lot better it was as though we all understood how gossip destroyed people, this reason was because the 2nd year of beauty therapy so many people never came back to college because they were so hurt and affected by gossip.
During the 3rd year I can proudly say, not once did gossip reach my ear or was spoken, And when it did happen it was sorted immediately with the two people who had issues in a correcty manor.
We all got along very well and when we didn’t we took the guts by stepping forward and confronting each other. When I look back to my 3rd year of college, I have to say I look back in delight of it all, the care for each other, the encouragement we received from each other; we never gave up on each other.
We were all like family and a very good team!And that’s the way it should have been. If one of us were out of money we would help the person.
I had one close friend who was going through a rough time at her home, her brother got out of jail and came back to the home only to destroy it all. He did a lot of damage. As this was happening, my friend phoned me crying on the phone, I could hear all the banging and breaking of glass, I could hear screaming of people in the background. Immediately I called a friend to come pick me up and to take me to her.We picked her up and allowed the police to deal with the rest and She stayed with me for a few days.
As you can see, we were all very close.If something happened we would call each other no matter what time it was if we were in need or danger. I look back on my 3rd year of college and think, I loved them all, Each one of them genuinely.
Now my 2nd year of college on the other hand was a disaster for me, gossip was so out of control, people were so selfish and didn’t care about each other. I had no friends and the people that were ‘friends’ only were because they couldn’t make any friends because of their bad history of backstabbing.I was a friend with all the backstabbers and gossipers, why? Because no one else would be their friend and I wasn’t going to allow them to sit on their own all the time and have a horrible year. Yea they have struggles but it didn’t make me love them any less, I stood by them.... But so many times they hurt me also because they gossiped about me.
I’ve forgiven each one of them, so I’m not holding any grudges, and I cannot allow offence to be taken.

Gossip destroys lives! In the spirit and emotionally.Words speak life! What life are you speaking when you speak about someone in the wrong way?We are all sick and tired of the same cycle of gossip. So lets start a new cycle of putting an end to it!! We need to avoid the areas that will pull you down! We need to constantly pursue love, peace, faith and righteousness.We need to get our Negative attitudes out of our life! Attitudes towards people.
‘If you have nothing nice to say don’t say anything at all’ this was a phrase that was said a lot by my family and me. I’ve learned that this phrase is GARBAGE!
We need to bring positive out of every situation, get negativity out of your hearts and minds!It’s your choice! Don’t allow yourself to be in a situation where you know you will fall, where you know Gossip will try and creep it, we need to cut it off.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Power to Change! - my 1st song!


Hey y'all!

forgive me for not updating for a wee bit!


I had an amazing opportunity to write and record with theeeeee famous 'Scott Nicol' yesterday :)
He has been bugging me for a while that we will write a song before i got back to Canada, I didn't actually think it would happen!

Scott is an amazing inspiration to me, a great leader, a great friend and encourages me constantly and makes me laugh till I can't breathe anymore ha ha

I'm very thankful for Scott and his family :)

He is an amazing Music leader of Cornerstone Church and also has an amazing CD 'stunning silence' and will be touring in Texas in March! whoop whoop!

Oh ! And anyone reading my blog, he's looking for Gigs in Scotland and England.....hint hint, Sam Gallagher I hope your reading this! you wanna do a Gig sometime with this dude, he's pretty awesome like you! ;) ha ha


So Yesterday I wrote my first song! When I was young I did write many songs unfortunately I didn't keep any of the words and have no idea what the songs sound like, a little gutted! (silly Becka)

Before i arrived at Scott's house in Prestwick I was really nervous about writing the song , I had no idea how to and where to begin.

We sat down and he began to ask questions about what was on my heart, I flicked through some journals, devotions, prayers and prophetic words spoken over my life.


And this is how its all pieced together!



Here it is,

Power To Change

Oh Lord you word
has the power to Change and Renew
Equip and enable, examine my heart cause I love you

Transform my weakness into supernatural strength
Empower, protect me, renew my heart again
Lord I heard you say ' I have anointed your lips'
to speak to a lifeless world
I am knocking at the door, the door of your heart
so rise up and prepare the way for me

You are anointed and I will take you
to your appointed time and place
where I will mould you, you will be still, reflect and seek my face

If you come away from the crowd, away from the crowd, away from the crowd


Oh Lord you word
has the power to change and renew
Equip and enable, examine my heart cause I love you

Transform my weakness into supernatural strength
Empower, protect me, Renew my heart again

Renew my heart again



By Rebekah-Joy




Thank you Scott for making this song happen!
check Scott Nicol out on




Wednesday, December 24, 2008

The Smiling Experiment

Well, honestly I'm a little Sad today, truth is I don't get sad often I'm a pretty joyful, happy girl and try to find the positive side of every situation.

But Today I'm a little sad,

I was walking through the town of Kilmarnock, the busy street with all the shops (can't really remember the name of the street) anyway the truth is I didn't see one person smile today, so I thought to myself if I'll smile at the people who walk by, a smile is always contagious so i want to spread the happy smile today!
well it didn't quite work, I got a lot of daggers especially from girls, and if i smile at a guy (by the way a little advice, smiling at a Ned isn't quite a good idea) all I got was;

"hawl you wit ye looking at?" or "wit ye all aboot?" "wit you smiling at?"

sooooo not a good idea to smile?? well stuff it I'm going to smile all I want I might get jumped but at least I will still be smiling! :)

My mum was shopping the other day and she was waiting 'exactly 22minutes' (she told me) in the Que for the ATM for some cash. The Que was pretty long obviously since she waited that long, as soon as it came to her turn the machine ran out of money, she didn't get angry all she did was laugh (i would do the same) what else can you do? there is nothing else you can do but laugh, thats what I think, even though its frustrating. You can choose your attitude!
Well she almost got booted by the woman behind her who was yelling and swearing at her because my mum was laughing "wit ye laughing aboot, your a pure nut heed" at this point my mum is laughing even more probably because of nerves, so the woman walks away swearing and yelling in the mall....... WELCOME TO SCOTLAND!

anyway I just had to share that story my point is I was sad, I was sad at the fact that these people don't have any joy and have nothing to smile about, it hurts me to watch this and know this I want them to experience the touch of God!

I think I might have to arrange a missionary team to come over here to Scotland from Canada... hint hint... any takers from Northgate??? we got a lot of smile rs from Northgate that's for sure :) Carla we need you! ;) he he

hope this wasn't depressing but just sharing what its like in my town, it is sad..... BUT

GREATER THINGS ARE YET TO COME, GREATER THINGS HAVE STILL BE DONE IN KILLIEEEEEEEEEEE! (Killie is short for Kilmarnock, just in case you got confused)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Desperate People

You crossed the great divide, You took our place
You offered up Your life though we have failed
the veil was torn and love remained
You are holy Lord

Distraction costs us, how we seek Your face
we offer up our lives to bring You praise
a love the walls cannot contain
You are holy Lord

We're rising up in spirit and in truth
a living sacrifice we worship You
people undivided, Lord hear us sing we are Yours and You are our King

This is our love Hearts joined as one
Desperate for all You are
Lord break down these walls and see how we love
Desperate for all You are

We chase Your heart We didn´t come to leave here entertained
or worship under any other name
we're crying out for You alone
You are holy Lord


Show us the way to Your heart we found our voice we found our cause
were on our knees, the carpet's worn we join our hearts with distant shores
and sing to You Lord

I love how this song speaks everything that is on my heart, you can listen to this song on the Hillsong United Cd 'desperate people'

Friday, December 19, 2008

obeying without understanding..... ooohhh tricky tricky

I’m having a wee giggle right now, a wee giggle with God :)
He amazes me! It amazes me to know that he KNOWS the plans that he has for me, so whenever I feel like I’m swaying from the plans that he has, he just tugs me and reminds me that, ‘he knows best’

Sometimes we find ourselves saying ‘No’ when we don’t understand; we pretty much have all cried out these little words “Lord I don’t understand! Why do I have to say no to this”, but when we trust in him then WOW it will hit you like BOOM!
I have often found myself struggling to obey when I don’t understand, but
We need to remember that God see’s the big picture and we only see the little picture, so for whatever reason that God is saying No to any situation we must trust in him. It isn’t easy it can be very tough but God will work out what’s best for you that’s exactly what he wants, he wants what is best for us! Don’t you feel a little spoiled by God?! :)

Today I rejoiced! A few weeks ago I found myself making a decision that I had been putting a lot of prayer into but I wasn’t finding peace, God gave many reasons why, so obeying without understanding wasn’t really my case, I had understanding because God was very clear why. But yet I wanted my way, (bad Becka!)
So I took a deep breath, I obeyed, and few weeks down the road I finally realized why God said no.
It all clicked in! And I give him all the Praise THANK YOU LORD!

So next time you struggle to obey when you don’t understand, learn to trust in him because it’s all for a reason!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Bling Bling and Hogmanay!

I forget how Beautiful Glasgow looks at Christmas time, the bright lights the huge events they have in the month of December, i have to say thank you Glasgow for always making a HUGE effort to make December really special for family and friends.


but i love, love, love to Go ice-skating in George square, even though i can't ice-skate to save myself but thats me i mostly look like an idiot most of the time anyway.


the ice rink is soooo unique,




Beautiful eh?






i'm lovin it, lovin it, lovin it, i'm lovin it like this!



But theres more to be excited for! My wonderful close friend for a long time Bethany got me tickets for WINTERFEST 08!!!





Pure deed Brilliant man!! Am well chuffed!




Saturday, December 13, 2008

Break my heart for what breaks yours


I said a little prayer, 'Lord break my heart for what breaks yours'

God answered,

Although that's what I prayed I think I had forgotten that I did, my heart started to break over his people, his children, his sons and daughters, oppression, poverty.
my heart was breaking for whats Breaks God's.
sometimes I think we need to be careful for what we pray for, if we pray for strength God is going to place you in a position where your going to need strength, same goes for peace, patience, love, the list goes on.
so I prayed and I expected God to answer and he did.

being here In Kilmarnock is pretty tough, mainly because I actually hate this town, (Killie readers please don't jump me) the reason I say this is because I don't really have any good memories here, this is the place i done most of my stupid stuff, my years of being a very out of control teenager.
the people here only remember me as the girl I used to be before I went to Masters commission in Canada, now this is hard.
Not a lot of people are accepting the fact that I'm not the person i used to be anymore, my Mindset when i arrived back in Kilmarnock was 'God help me, i can't be here',
I know God is going to challenge me and stretch me and even Heal me in the areas that he can't necessarily heal when I'm in Canada, i have to be here.
so i have a choice to either stay in the mindset of 'always hating kilmarnock' or understand that there ARE greater things yet to come and Greater things yet to be done in this city, and allow God to use me here.

the Holy spirit stirrs in me when i sing and proclaim these words, a fire burns and i see hope and begin to proclaim that,

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You are
You're the light in this darkness
You're the hope to the hopeless
You're the peace to the restless
You are
and There is no one like our God There is no one like our God

For greater things Have yet to come And greater things Are still to be done in this city!
For greater things Have yet to come And greater things Are still to be done here